my first day as teacher in 2008

Bismillah.. Today is my first day as a teacher. I teach at someplace somewhere in malaysia. I cannot reveal the school name for my own sake. Hehehe.. It was very hard day for me actually. I am supposedly to start teaching next week (21th april 2008), but luckly I got the chances to teach earlier. (lucky ke?..). I am supposely do my ROS (research of school) this week. usually other trainee does their ROS in a few weeks period because there are a lot of things to do. But we just get the chance to do it in 1 week time only. Well, never mind. We are trained to do things in rushing and compressed and limited time. (time constraint..so depressed). Why I says this? Because DPLI student study in 9 months period to get the diploma to teach. a lot of things to do in just 3 months for 1 semester. And proud to announce our pass great is B. 13 weeks of study, which week 13 is final exam. No study week. So basically i am saying we can do things in such a short time given. So we did ROS in 1 week. All my friend still not start teaching..but me... I look at this opportunity positively. At least I can get to know all of my future students. The students that I have to face with during this 3 months period. How they looks like..are they handsome are they pretty..are they good..are they lazy..what type of person are this kids was. So I don’t mind if I have to teach early that others. So today, finally I got to see my lovely students. They got face, just like me..they got height, they got identity.. they got it all. (got x-pax got it all).. I have to teach ict form 4. This school got their own computer labs. I was suppose to teach at 1.20-2.40 pm (2 period). Because I am doing nothing today..beside taking photos and talking to teacher or overview the school situation and environment, I went early to office to get the key for the lab. After jotted down my name, date taken, which keys taken in the office book, I went straight to the computer lab. It was still very early. My handphone shows it was 12.30 pm. Still have a lot of time to start my session. My heart beat but not so fast. But I am worry..Same like worry for the first paper of examination. Walked..walked..walked..all the hallway..along the class... I am thinking..is it real this is really happen?? Am I dreaming? I guess not. Sure la its not..kan Finally I reach the lab. Open the door lock. Key in the combinations key...tap, the door open...WAAA...this is the lab.. so big.. so nice arrangement...so full..of computer equipment...Then I was amazed for a moment. Hurry..hurry...click there click here click up and down...I am taking the photos of the lab..(for my ROS la..not because I am so ‘jakun’). Sikit2 adala. First thing I thought is, are they any whiteboard? Yesss...there it was...it is there.. (selamat jari2 ku dari bermain dgn kapur..) There was also a printer, a scanner, a projector. This is good enough.. I feel relieved. Then, I put my bag..go around the lab...took photos. Go looking for air cons switch. I found this closed door room. Opened it. Found the switch.. switched on the air conditioner.. fuhhh...feel lega.. Hilang panas berjalan jauh. Then seat on my desk. In front of the class.. switched on my computer. Switched the projector. Open the CD’s given to me about the lesson of ict. I don’t have to susahkan diri lagi make the power point slide because i was told to used this cd’s. It is already complete of what i am going to teach. Topic by topic. Try to use the projector..owh..work perfectly. Nice!! Switched it off back because still a lot of time to start my lesson. Even my students are not here yet. I waited for them to come to the lab. While waiting, I did re-study the topic to teach today and what should i do in self introduction session. I listed down a few things to say or to ask. Then I draw the plan of the room. Saje utk ingatan sendiri kedudukan pc dan pc2 yang mana rosak tu I labelled it. Almost time to teach. About 1.20 one Chinese student ‘jenguk muka’ on my door. ‘cikgu, ni kelas it 4it2 ke?’.... ‘yes, pls come in’. Then some of their friends outside bising2 ‘ wei cikgu suruh masuk la.. kelas betul la..’ and what so ever yang I cannot hear. After 5 to 7 minutes...all of them are already in the labs. 19 of them. My student in this class are 19. All of them here meaning..no one ponteng. I feel a bit nervous. What is next??... suddently.. one student asked ‘cikgu, cikgu ganti ke mcm mana?’ i don’t want to explain until everybody’s ready. So I asked her to wait and tell her I will explain later. Suddently ‘cikgu,cigu ganti yer?’ and more more of the same question keep poping. So I am starting to explain who am I without telling them that I am practical there. I am sure they know. But i told them i am there to replace their previous teacher. The situation at that moment is so loud. Everybody’s talking and playing. Oh god...here I am at my fully and reality cabaran. I told the class to keep quite and listened. Some of their friends also told their other friends to keep silent while i am talking. For a second they shut up..then...Here it goes again. Because the lab is so big..I have to project my voice. I feel like i need the training that Student AF did. I have to project my voice clearly and loudly. So that all of them can here and give attention. I teach and speak in English. One Chinese boy (good looking..tall too..just pakaian kurang kemas) aked me, ‘cikgu, cakap bahasa melayu la cikgu..’ erk...how can i? I have to teach in English because the law says so..if not what i am going to do when my lecturer come and observe me???.. a lot of questions pop out from my mind.. bermacam perkara i fikir at that time..Yer la..hari pertama..this is my very first time teaching..lansung x pernah before.. All of the student aaa... when i spoke in englisg they lost their focus and attention. Mereka lebih banyak bermain dah bercakap2 bising2... but when i talk malay..they focus on me..silence for a few minutes.. (my English are not good enuff ke..pronunciation salah???) I am sure not..because some of them did response to me in English as well. But a lot of them not interested if the lesson teached in English. After a few minutes sesi perkenalan, they seem eager to learn ,these kids.. Ai feel kesian.. bersemangat mereka nak belajar. ‘cikgu,bila nak mula belajar??’ terdengar macam suara.. bising.. I asked them if we could start now to make sure they ready. They agreed. Nasib baik prepare lesson plan. Kalau x..naye ai derang minta belajar tapi ai belum nak mengajar.. So i start teach them. I use English more. These kids are so active. They are so talkative. They asked a lot of question. But when i asked them they did not answer.. or wrong answers. They just tembak je nak jawab apa pun..keadaan mmg bising. Ada yang beri tumpuan..ramai yg bercakap cakap jugak. Tapi they seem wants to learn. After that i found out one student is sleeping. I don’t know why..i just walked to one group table.. round around..lucky i met this sleeping prince. I just ketuk kerusi dia. A few times.. i did want to shout out something or marah.. but I think again..i am new..this is not supposedly the way i shoud do. So I just left the student there. But he woke up. Just that he don’t give a look at me.. he must be angry that i wake him up. Nvm mind still a lot of time i get to know these kids... I wil siasat their problem and so on... After that these 3 chinese boy..they playing around.. i asked them if they understand what i teach. Mereka sejujurnya menggeleng kepala.. then i told them ‘ if u don’t understand why don’t u listen?’.. they agreed.. ‘yer cikgu..yer yer’.. so funny this Chinese boy. Cute dough.. but they talked in Chinese language among them..so i warn them not Chinese language in my class. Continue teach them....bla bla bla.. Tanya itu ini.. sesi soal jawab dan sebagainya... sampai tekak pun dah sakit...bila suara terpelahan..’cikgu,x dgr..ckp kuat sikit’ namapak gaya lepas ni, i will have big voice lar.. I cannot describe how havoc and hustle the class at that time..but mostly because they are giving the worng answers and they laugh at others.. This girl..she answer my question..but pronounce the word wrongly. Its word is ‘devices’ She pronounce it as ‘divices’..so this handsome cute boy laugh at her.. keep playing the wrong pronounciation...and this girl..she got mad.. apa entah dia jerit2 dekat budak lelaki ni.. this boy look clever and ask a lot of question.. I think he is smart. It is hard for me to calm them down..jadi perang2 pulak sekejap... tak tahu mcm mana nak sound mereka.. oh my god.. Kelakar pun ada jgk masa tu rasanya...tp I just acted fierce because i don’t want them to bully me. Tapi mereka ni mmg x makan saman... Class today end at 2pm because they have koko. Bermacam juga yang happened today.. kesimpulannye..mereka suka belajar tapi mereka suke main juga..kekekee.... I will find out how to get their fully attention and how to teach them. I am just afraid they don’t understand me.. I really want to give them knowledge...kesian mereka x fmh bhs inggeris. yg mana x ada buku pulak cakap mereka miskin.. hurm.. tapi mereka main2...which is the true??